I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

LIKE A BOSSS

I’m not sure why I posted “It’s a trap”, I don’t know what actually could be a trap. But anyway.

I managed to effectively not talk to him all night, with him in the room, whilst maintaining a mask of partying perfection in which I was terribly witty and clever (but mostly just drunk) and continuing pretty much as normal. Excellent.

I may have already told you about the onesies, I think it’s an excellent plan personally. And I’ve certainly wanted one for a while.

I shall have to buy one befitting his awesomeness.

IT’S A TRAP!

I have the worst/best plan ever. :)

muahaheehahaheha

you know there are loads of weird inspirational quotes and stuff on the web, I just found one that I must have read and written down on a tiny scrap of paper. And it’s made me feel better

Don’t leave. Please. Stay.

It’s nice to be in the dark, right?

You can relax a little. 

No brittle smiles. No air kisses.

No sarcasm. Forget the stress.

The worry. The petty skirmishes.

Life is too short. Too short for cruelty.

Close your eyes.

I don’t know who wrote it, but I like it. Well done Past-Louise for writing something you knew Future-Louise, who is currently Now-Louise, would need.

Okay, I’ve gone through a couple of stages of blame here. Some of it to you, some of it to me. 

There is a balance, but really. You are being a douchebag, I understand that if I hadn’t spent the past 2 weeks building you up to be someone with qualities you clearly do not possess then this wouldn’t be so upsetting. But then again, if you were the man that you’ve always presented to me, you’d be closer to the truth, and you wouldn’t be hurting me anyway.

We know each other well, so I’m not too sure what it is you’re trying to pull here. And if this is just a thing that you wanted to happen, and you’re not trying to pull anything. What the fuck were you trying to pull the week before I went to Southwell?

I don’t know where your head is at right now. But you’re certainly not considering anyone else. We’re being alienated by you and I’m not sure if you know it.

I’m going home tomorrow. And I would be happy to go home right now without seeing you. No lie.

neverjustanordinarygirl:

paintingvisions:

and most of the time it seems like they don’t care about me at all. 

gpoy